I've been slacking

But I really can't help it.

Spring Break is officially in less than 24 hours. And Bora Bora is in less than 48.

I am but a (wo)man.

everyday

someone said it was vacation season.
Someone else said it was mid terms.
Someone else blamed it on a sleep debt.
Someone else said it was because better things are around the corner.


No matter what everyone tells themselves, there is not an answer for restlessness. Restlessness when there are plenty of things to be do as in one should need rest, not have excess rest!

I call it a lack of motivation. A lack of motivation from being overly comfortable. Why would one want to move from a stagnant content state? Why would anyone want to force exhaustion, pressure, uncomfortableness etc etc on their self?

No one would want to. But someone else said it was because I want to better myself.

Super human syndrome.

Drug dealers, rap stars and alpha males are all prone to this.

Is it a bad thing?
I think not.

If anything it is a rare and desirable quality.

Everyday I'm hustlin'
Everyday I need to remind myself to do that.

at 6:14 am

I begin to feel bad for my body.

quickie

This week has been back on track (I can say this because it is now Tuesday and not Monday) except for my narcolepsy :[ I need to get that under control. But how can you resist dark, warm, comfy cubicles? aka my dormroom of a cave. And during the day is the only time my roommate is asleep as well (she is nocturnal-we are different) It is a difficult situation.

But I am sick of half day/nap/long night/half night.


My body is confuzzeedd.

valentimes

I love valentines day. It is warm emotionally and aesthetically!
Interestingly enough, this day can make you love your life or hate it. There really is not any perpendicular intersection with this one.

I have had "love my life" days on a couple Feb. 14s as well "hate my life" on just about the same. Right now I am even. And even at 50/50 I feel pretty damn lucky.

On that note, for all the UNlucky, I think this day is too exclusive. On christmas you don't necessairly hate your life just because you got practical gifts or gift cards or a card from your grandma. BUT on valentines day a card from your grandma is basically airmail anthrax.

Valentine's Day should be broadened to include acknowledging and appreciating all love, not just romantically. Friend love, pet love, family love, favorite food love, hobby love etc. etc.

I love valentines day. And so should you. Even if it doesn't end with a blowjob at the end of the night, the warmth should still be spread like a highly contagious rash.

P.S. i love everything about valentines day except for those grosssssss conversation hearts. They taste like chalk! blehgh!



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P.S.S. Except those conversation hearts are so damn cute!!!

been thinking about...

I like learning a hell of a lot more than teaching.


Can I just learn for the rest of my life?

is that okay?

marathon

I decided I want to run a marathon. I mean it. Like a serious one, at least 10 miles.

goal?

10 miles.